JadedOptimist

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dream sequence by JadedOptimist, literature

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dream sequence

I dream of jellyfish in toilets in semi-abandoned houses where we play like gleeful children and pretend to be surviving. I dream of you wearing my ring and me wearing yours, even though we already got them for each other. We lay together, intertwined under a yellow sodium streetlight superimposed over the flaking walls and watch B-movies on an old tv. When we close our eyes, the ceiling disappears and the canopy of stars winks at us as if to say 'there is a reason you are here.' Ideally, I would love to photograph this scene but I find myself leaving my camera on the nightstand and snuggling up close to you. Except for my trips to the bathro

two particles by JadedOptimist, literature

spinning by JadedOptimist, literature

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spinning

I keep spinning around in circles like I did when I was five. But somehow, it feels as though the world itself has stopped spinning. I'm dizzied; I'm confused. I wobble, but I don't fall over yet. I feel I must keep standing, even though my knees are begging me to let them buckle. I spin some more, and then I give in. I fall. The sky looks so beautiful and I wish to get lost in it. The dizzying twists of stars and clouds in my muddled mind make me feel as though the world is spinning too fast now. I lay back and let the sensation abate. Then, I stand and spin again. I close my eyes and let the momentum take me away, beyond all rhyme and re

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vermillion sin by JadedOptimist, literature

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vermillion sin

This bitter taste lurks inside my mouth where you've placed it, with your words of sympathy and your condescending tone. Sometimes I feel that you don't understand, or maybe it's just that your tongue is tangled up in knots again. This vermilion sin of lust that I've licked off your lips belongs to nobody now. It's all consuming, and I'm willing to sacrifice myself to it just to have some peace and quiet. I'm willing to open the flood doors and let it all come out, let you in, except that's not what you want at all. The emotions only seem to clutter the picture you're trying to paint, a scene of heaven composed of original sin and romantic id

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the Minority Opera by JadedOptimist, literature

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the Minority Opera

The loudest voices, the biggest lungs bellowing, screaming begging to be heard. but "All I hear is silence." This is the opera of our times the American way and MTV. A minority opera not worthy never worthy of being heard by those mainstream bigwigs and their chattering entourage. Who talks about nothing? We struggle to be heard over a mass voice that spews out repetitive rubbish while we try to share our artistic visions. Crying out to be heard, to distance ourselves from what is "popular culture today"? don't question us as we question authority and the final number draws to a close. As the "fat lady"

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Love is Suicide by JadedOptimist, literature

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Love is Suicide

"love" is a game you play, cat-chase-mouse and come in for the kill but every playful swipe of the claws cuts deep and the blood pours out faster than the "love" can't you see I don't want to play anymore? "love" is the seasons, spring-forward, summer together, fall into bed but you can't forget there is another season for it is always winter in your heart and the coldness cuts deeper than the warmth can burn "love" is life, or so you say but every second the end creeps nearer because you hurt me, you slay me and eventually I'll die for this so-called "love" "love is suicide," disguised as feeling

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About JadedOptimist

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Oct 10
United States
Deviant for 20 years
She / Her

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Current Residence: ...take your wings outside, you can't fly in here...
Favourite genre of music: anything with poetic lyrics and gorgeous instrumentation
Favourite photographer: anyone who can capture the wonder of the world
Favourite style of art: [photo manipulation][poetry][collage][photography]
Operating System: Windows XP
MP3 player of choice: mine. but only because I can control the music.
Shell of choice: seashell
Skin of choice: I feel as though I'm masquarading in somebody else's skin
Favourite cartoon character: [Death][Gir][Courage the Cowardly Dog][Tinkerbell]
Personal Quote: I keep looking to the sky, expecting rain to pour down and drown my upturned face. but yet, sunshine

Favourite Visual Artist

look in my favorites

Favourite Movies

[Edward Scissorhands][Fight Club][Eternal Sunshine][Donnie Darko][the Princess Bride]

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

[Alkaline Trio][Spill Canvas][Dashboard Confessional][Copeland][Fall Out Boy][panic! at the disco]

Favourite Writers

I read so much these day

Tools of the Trade

[cutouts][tape][markers][scissors][pens][Modge Podge][imagination][Photoshop][heartbreak]

Other Interests

[music][art][poetry][macabre fun][dress-up][stars][faerie wings][sparkly anything][reading][you]

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JadedOptimist

Feb 22, 2007

my heart lies elsewhere

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I really don't post too much on this page anymore. it has reverted to its original status of fangirling. right now my heart is in my photography. ~shuttered-smiles (https://www.deviantart.com/shuttered-smiles) is the window to me right now.

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JadedOptimist

Aug 11, 2006

10,000 page views

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thank you to the few people who actually look at my page and such. I am excited to have so many page views. did anybody get a screenshot?

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JadedOptimist

Jun 27, 2006

friendly reminder

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since I'm not posting anything here right now, I'd like to propose that all of my watcher's go and watch my photography account. ~shuttered-smiles (https://www.deviantart.com/shuttered-smiles) pretty please?